Life update- Swedish blogpost update, Bipolar madness, skiing and well being

Hello.

I thought I would make an effort and start blogging in swedish as well as english, so from now on you’ll see the each blogpost in Swedish in the second part of the blogpost. 🙂

Today is a pretty good day since I feel like I’m making the right desicions for myself and can express my situation in words so I thought I would write some.

I’ve discovered that being bipolar and blogging is hard actually. But mostly for the reader I  can imagine. One day  I’m fine and then I all of a sudden the next day I want to die or something in that sense. I think for someone standing outside of my madness, watching it all it must be quite hard to follow. The thing is I’m still struggling with myself to get the right kind of medication and a lifestyle that will benefit me the most in my life so everything is extremely upside down right now.

I have started to work out again each day and I can already tell there is improvement in my mental health. I can barely wait to see the differance this will make in my physical well being as well…I’ve got many ideas on how I want to exercise during the diffrent seasons of the year. Since It’s winter skiing becomes relevant again which I for years have wanted to try out again, I think the last time I went skiing was in third grade haha.

I had a breakdown a few weeks ago when I got a full blown anxiety attack and wanted to end it all. One week  ago I had to go to the psychiatric ward because I felt like I wanted to hurt myself and I didn’t want that to happen but I got no help what so ever and had to go home without anything to calm me down. I believe that I could have just talked on the phone with them instead but they thought I should come in for valuation, and I still didn’t get any help.

There might be some more blogposts during the day since this is a good writing day.

Hugs,

/Viola Whimsical

 


 

Hej.

TĂ€nkte jag Ă€ven skulle börja blogga pĂ„ svenska. Jag hoppas ni svenskar nu anstrĂ€nger er och lĂ€ser bloggen dĂ„ det kommer ta mycket tid att översĂ€tta alla kommande inlĂ€gg för mig. 🙂

Idag Àr en bra dag dÄ jag kÀnner att jag tar rÀtt beslut i mitt liv och kan uttrycka min livssituation i ord sÄ jag passar pÄ att skriva lite.

Jag har upptÀckt att vara bipolÀr och bloggare samtidigt Àr ganska svÄrt. Men mest för lÀsaren kan jag nog förestÀlla mig. En dag mÄr jag bra och helt plötsligt nÀsta dag vill jag dö eller nÄgot i den stilen. Jag fÄr för mig att för nÄgon som stÄr utanför av mina galenskaper och som ser allting, mÄste det vara svÄrt att hÀnga med. Saken Àr den att jag fortfarande kÀmpar med mig sjÀlv, att fÄ rÀtt medicin och livsstil som blir mest till min fördel i livet sÄ allting Àr extremt upp och ner just nu.

Jag har börjat trĂ€na varje dag och jag kan redan nu kĂ€nna positiv förĂ€ndring i mitt psykiska mĂ„ende. Kan knappt bĂ€rga mig att se skillnaden det kommer göra i min fysiska hĂ€lsa ocksĂ„…Har mĂ„nga idĂ©er om hur jag ska röra pĂ„ mig under de olika Ă„rstiderna. Nu pĂ„ vintern blir ju tex skidĂ„kning aktuelllt igen vilket jag flera Ă„r tillbaka viljat prova pĂ„ igen, senast jag Ă„kte skider var nog nĂ€r jag gick i trean haha.

Jag hade ett sammanbrott för nÄgra veckor sedan dÄ jag fick en extremt stark Ängestattack och ville avsluta mitt liv. För en vecka sedan var jag tvungen att Äka till psykiatriska akutmottagningen för det kÀndes som jag ville skada mig sjÀlv och jag ville inte att det skulle hÀnda sÄ jag Äkte dit, men jag fick ingen hjÀlp överhuvudtaget. Jag tycker att jag skulle kunnat prata med dem i telefon istÀllet men de tyckte jag skulle komma ner till Karlstad för utvÀrdering, men fick som sagt ingen hjÀlp trots mina sjÀlvskadetankar.

Kanske kommer flera inlÀgg under dagen dÄ jag kÀnner att det Àr en bra skrivardag idag.

Kramar,

/Viola Whimsical

 

 

Lolitabutiken (Swedish review)

Hej allihopa, Okej sÄ nu medans jag Àr sjuk och inte har nÄgot att göra sÄ tÀnkte jag att jag kunde göra en liten recension av lolitabutiken.se som Àr en svensk relativt nystartad lolita internetaffÀr. De brukar Àven finnas med pÄ lite olika event som NÀrCon och PeppCon.
Jag tycker att detta Àr helt underbart dÄ det gör att lolitaklÀder och accesoarer blir mycket lÀttare att fÄ tag pÄ i Sverige. Jag gjorde en liten testbestÀllning nyligen och allt har funkat skitbra! Personalen Àr riktigt trevlig och leveransen Àr snabb och helt felfri. 10/10 rakt igenom!

Jag bestÀllde 2st par strumpor och en fin röd rosettring.
NÀr man bestÀller fÄr man en liten present och jag fick en gullig liten kartong med tvÄ st apelsintuggummin!
Jag Àr helnöjd med min bestÀllning!

 

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/ Viola Whimsical

Night feelings

Not feeling so very well at The moment. This year has been so tough on me and had me dealing with so many struggles.
I lost a shitload of “friends” (fake,fake,fake) changed My eating habits a hundred times (It was putting too much stress on My body because of it changing so fast and sometimes in a very unhealthy way.)
I’m very pleased that The very fast way I was living is slowing down at The moment. I can look back at things now and realise why that kind of living is not working for me. I have to calm down and study here, where I’ve always lived.

Do I still miss My friends at My old school? yes, some of them.

Do I still want to leave this town as quickly as possible? probably, yeah.

Do I still hate this town as much as I did before I left for Karlstad? actually no, not as much as I used to.

So there are some quite positive things about this and some negative things and That’s okay! I’m glad it’s not only bad things!
Anyways, now I feel like I really need to sleep. Might catch you all at breakfast tomorrow 😉

Goodnight ❀,
Viola Whimsical

Who is Viola Whimsical? – DIY

DIY or ”do it yourself” is actually a great part of my life. From a quite young age I started to sew and decorate things for the dolls I had. But when I became I bit older I started to sew and create things that I wanted for myself. A part of the reason of why I started DIY:ing would be because of the lack of pretty much anything in the town, Another reason would be my creative mindset and imagination. Since there haven’t really been anything cool around when I was little I pretty much learned to create anything I wanted to see out of nothing.

Up the road, about 500m from my home is a second hand store. The only store of very few that I really love in my tiny little town. I visit there regulary, once a week to lay my hands on some diy friendly goodies. The range of good things is very limited, so one has to be quick or else the best items might be gone the next day. Fortunalty, some of the things I want or look for specifically seems to be things nobody else in this little town would look for so I don’t have to worry about the items being bought.

 

You will hear alot more about my DIY and art in my blog 😉

That’s all for now!

viola whimsical edit